Man soll was sagen...

Wenn man sich in sein Job fühlte als ob er vermodert, soll er der Klappe aufmachen, ja auch wenn es dazu kommen wird das er weniger Zeit haben wird um die Internet zu surfen. Man/n wird sich besser fühlen wenn die Zeit in die Arbeit erfüllt ist und er zu tun hat.

Perhaps the German version is a little unclear as to the point I'm trying to make.
It's the latest in a long story, which we won't go into here, love, betrayal, sordid doings, etc. (sorry kids no murder , sex or drugs, though there has been some rock and roll involved) Perhaps I'll tell you more sometime, maybe some snowy evening in front of the fire.

Anyway, I've been feeling underused at work, out of the loop, mouldering away in the corner and such. So I finally said something to my supervisor this morning and will now have more responsibilities and things to do around here and not feel cast off to the side. This will also mean that I won't have as much time to sit at the computer and surf around the blogosphere. But it'll be worth it to feel better about myself in my job. Now I need to make myself pursue this newest plan of action, I've always been one to just give up and let the pushy people get in there and do whatever. Not a good tactic I admit, but it's just the way I've always done things. Granted this leads to feelings of self doubt, lowered self worth and bouts of depression. Which is also why I need to abandon my former ways of dealing with such situations. Easier said than done as well. It's time to shit or get off the pot.